Something that made me think...

Sheila sent me an email the yesterday about making 2010 a good year. I had already started many of them on my own, as a way to get to a more positive place.

There was one in there that slapped me across the face and I have been processing it since. It is really very simple I just never thought of it before.

That people think of you is none of your business.

Not only is it true.... but it is so liberating.

I sent a lot of time worried about what people thought of me. It generally made me unhappy, because I always felt like I needed to change me in order for them to like me.

Well what they think of me is not any of my business.

I am minding my own business and taking care of me and what others think of me is THEIR business.

Thank you Sheila so much for this... it is freeing. I love ya to bits girl!

The pic is of sam lmao I LOVE that picture!

My Saturday...

Lets see...

I slept til 9:30... I can not tell you just how wonderful this sleep is, so deep and restful!

Did the real clothes and makeup thing... got to love myself!

Then I went out to lunch and bought a new scanner/printer. I love that! Been scanning all kinds of fun stuff... I will be sharing some of that.

Cleaned the living room ... rearranged furniture and all that good stuff... and cleaned the bathroom too!

Had a healthy supper, but not much of it... just not hungry....

Then I got in my footies.... cause it is a bit chilly...

I had lots to smile about today.... the emails from sheila crack me up .... always.

Going through old pictures

The salesman at walmart was from New York and was hilarious

The goat across the road had twins kids!

It was a GREAT day!!!

Yep that is me

The day...

I got up at 5:30 fully rested!WOOT

I spent 4 hours cleaning my kitchen and dining room. I cleaned out every cabinet, every drawer, ever counter, every appliance inside and out. Everything is rearranged and organized. The floors got swept and mopped. I cleaned out the big buffet in the dining room. It is spotless! I love it... but it did wear me out ... I tossed out a lot of stuff and just decluttered.

I then got cleaned up ... nice clothes, cut underthings, makeup and hair

Went to walmart and it wasnt so bad lol I ended up walking around the store for about 45 mins so I count that as my walk today.

I had a nice arbys club for lunch and leftover turkey, corn and sliced tomatoes. Yogurt for dessert. I am not hungry much the last couple of days... maybe the meds not sure yet... but I am eating anyway.

I spent the afternoon goofing off.... cut my nails and gave myself a manicure. Playing games on the computer....

I dont know if I will clean over the weekend but I will do the rest ....

Confession....

I have recently started a love affair.

I want to look nice... I want to smell nice... I want to have soft touchable skin.

I take bubble baths, do my hair, do my makeup, wear cute underwear, wear perfume, and even jewelry.

I take time to put on lotion, and I take care to pick out nice clothes that I look good in.

So who am I having this love affair with ..... me.

I realized this morning when I was putting on some mascara that if someone were watching me the last few days that they would think I was starting a new relationship ... I laughed a little... then I realized that I have!

I think that we go to the trouble for someone else... why not for ourselves? Who is more important?

Start a new love affair with yourself..

Wrong turns...

During the cleaning last night I was thinking... lol yep it is back ... but GOOD thinking not wallowing thinking.

I mentioned that I took a wrong turn, well wrong exit really but turn sounds better. lol Anyway I was a little anxious for a few minutes because I was headed down into downtown Ft Worth... all skyscrapers and one way streets. I am only a LITTLE familiar with the area. I knew tho that if I stayed going north I would eventually end up close to home! So in the middle of the city I found a one way street and headed north and before I knew it I was back in the Stockyards... not only do I LOVE the stockyards but I knew how to get home from there! LOL

So this made me think about many times in my life when I took a wrong turn and ended up in a place I love.

First I got pregnant at 17 ... looking for love... story for another time. I got Sam and Bill in my life. 24 years later I still have them in my life and it was one of the BEST wrong turns I ever took! I ended up in a place I love!

Second applies to now. I took a wrong turn and got lost in wallowing in the past and a combo of medicine issues... I didn't realize I was lost for a while. I was so lost... I got the right meds... I got some sleep and I am loving the place I am in right now.... LOVE IT.

How many times in our lives do we panic and fret when we do the wrong thing only to learn in time it was one of the best things that ever happened to us?

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The difference in my ability to deal with life is like day and night. I got up yesterday feeling great! Sleep is at least partly to ... cant say blame... lol but you know. The sleep was amazing! Made me sassy ... yesterday was so great.

I slept again last night and I am happy, peaceful and ready to tackle the world already this morning. I have been up about 45 mins and I have already taken the dogs out, fed all the pets, hung up/ folded up and put away 3 loads of laundry and am doing my computer stuff. I feel so good. I can't even tell you. The meds haven't even had time to fully start to work yet! Is this what normal people feel like?

I have take antidepressants for 16 years and always felt ... draggy and in a fog I honestly haven't felt this good in YEARS....

I know that it is a combo of lots of things... a positive outlook, rest, better food, the meds and a purpose!

So far there is only one side effect.... I am craving water! LOL great side effect. It causes a little bit of a dry mouth. I am a tea drinker but the tea doesn't seem to help as much as water. I want water... so I am happy. They said that there is a "hangover" in the morning where you are groggy... and I had that yesterday... or maybe I was just still tired BUT I am alert and raring to go today no hangover.

Watch out because I am hurricane Gina lol in a good way!
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Ok plan for the day... world domination. KIDDING!

I am going to work in my kitchen, the bottom cabinets are terrible! Small appliances all over and dishes I don't use that sort of thing. I am going to clean that and rearrange them. The tupperware cabinet ... well open THAT with care... I will match the bowls and lids. I will sweep and mop the floors.

If I am still in a cleaning mood after that I will start cleaning out and organizing the buffet thing in the dining room and clean the dining room.

That is all I am planning as to the house... but heck who know what I will get done lol

I will hop on the treadmill or walk outside today... it is going to be 74!

Oh yesterday I ate 2 meals and no snacks... which is weird for me I WAS eating kinda all day ... which is WHY the girls were looking better... I wasn't wanting to eat all day I wasn't eating to try to cope so that is good. I will have to watch this because the increase in activity and the not wanting to eat can go bad for me in a hurry. I may get an increase in appetite or not too early to tell ... but I will watch it. LOL figures that as soon as I decide I LIKE the weight I am at I start to move and not eat!

I will get out of the house today... no idea yet what I will do... but something fun.

I will get dressed in something decent to leave the house in! lol

Who knows what else I will do today! but you know what I am really really sure it will be good!

You know what else God is good! All the time... even when we ignore Him. He is still there.... waiting...

Ok taking another look at the senator then I am getting on with the day lol

turns out....

I wasn't done... I also cleaned out this cabinet... it had sewing stuff in it and moved it and turned it into a pantry!

Yes that is a can of spaghettios and no you can't have it!

I am also on the 3rd load of laundry and I decluttered around my chair and puter!

Stripped the bed and remade it and am washing the sheets I took of next....

I figure at this rate I will be at Sheila's next week to clean her house and Hazy's the week after! LOL

WOW

I feel to much better today and I had such an amazing day!

First I slept like the dead... lol I went to sleep about 11 and got up at 5:30 and then went back to bed at 7 and slept again til 10:30 .... good deep restful sleep.

I feel so sassy and happy... I am sure it is a combo of the new medicine and the sleep.

I got up and got cleaned up.... my jeans were no longer tight! YAY (no sweats!) I found a shirt in my closet that still had the tags on (score!) and I even put on makeup!

I drove to Arlington and had Lung (lunch) with Sam at a Mexican food place AND I resisted eating something drowning in cheese... I ate lots of shrimp! SO GOOD and healthier... we won't talk about that piece of margarita pie we shared! lol

On the way home I took a wrong turn and ended up in the Stockyards in downtown Ft. Worth! I love that area .... it was great.

I decided I needed to shop.... I went to Catos ... my favorite place. Now I have been wearing sports bras for 3 years because well the weight loss let my boobs.. hmm deflated and the way the tuck was done I have a Y under them. Wearing regular bras was not possible... HONESTY ahead! LOL Sadly my boobs just kinda pooled in the cups, and the Y would pucker. So I told you I had gained a few pounds... but that I was still in my same clothes? Well the extra fat went to the girls!!!!!! I tried on some cute bra and pantie sets and the girls look good! I have decided that I like that and am not going to try to lose any weight... lol I am embracing my weight and curves.... I have ruffly and sexy under things! I am so excited! lol

I also found a pair of jeans that fit...YAY that is rare... I found out I stand a much better chance with the CLASSIC fit at catos. I also bought 3 shirts and a sassy red wallet that is like a small purse! It was good ... usually clothes shopping is not great for me! Maybe it was my outlook?

Got home and go the dishwasher in and done... and it doesnt leak! Going to run the first load in a few minutes.

I got the mess from that cleaned up, vacuumed and got the laundry going.

I cooked a healthy dinner, smoked turkey breast, mashed potatoes (light on the butter) corn on the cob (no butter) and sliced tomatoes! YUMM

I will probably declutter around my chair and computer tonight as well.

I just had such a great day... it was sunny and warm and I was out of the house.

I am proud of me today!

I think you can see all the things that made me happy and made me smile without me listing them here! lol